Day by day, that’s how it’s done.
I’ve been doing pretty good in general lately. Drinking has been kept to a minimum (helps having a friend who doesn’t drink or smoke), I am even trying to stop smoking – I’ve had one in the past two weeks. Just trying to get myself together a day at a time.
Today I’ll actually have time to read my new favorite book, Women, Food, and God by Geneen Roth. She has a lot of insight into food issues. I told Oprah on Twitter that if this book ends up being another mistake (i.e. A Million Little Pieces) she’s gonna have to return my money to me. Think she’ll pay up? haha 
Going to a huge weekend party on Saturday, alcohol will indeed be consumed, but as long as no cigarettes are smoked, I can cite that as progress.
Only other thing going on is that I’m starting to hear my brain say “I told you so!” a lot in regards to people who I knew weren’t friends, but I tried to make them friends. I always describe my friendships as a bullseye pattern – the ones in the center are the most important, and outward from the center is a natural drop in placement and importance. Bullseye friends are the one who you call because the police are at your house and they come immediately. They’re the ones who stand up for you against family when they know you’re right and their family is wrong. They’re the ones who buy you dinner and expect nothing in return. And I often try to pull people into my bullseye who don’t belong there. So my brain has been telling me a lot that I should leave certain people on the outside of that bullseye pattern but I don’t listen, then once my heart realizes that the brain was right, there’s a horrible sound that happens in my head, almost like glass being crushed. I really need to make an effort to stop doing that. I’m sure that involves something from childhood too, after all, doesn’t everything?
The best thing I like about my life is that I have a chance to learn from it every day.
