PB&Anger
Not even 10 minutes after I posted, I went into the kitchen and made a sandwich. Then I come back to my PC and see something that really angered me. My first thought was “Why are people so fickle?” And then my next thought was that I wouldn’t be dealing with these type of people if I still had my closest friends around, the ones who got involved in relationships and never have time to do anything but relationship related shit all the time.
That made me think that what I’m really mad at is that I can’t go hang out with anyone I am close with, and the upsetting fact that I’m always single, always the third wheel. That I was going to be going to bed alone tonight knowing that no one is out there wishing they could be with me. I want to eat again but I’m not going to, I’m going to read some more, watch TV, and go to sleep, and hope that tomorrow I can at least feel what I’m feeling and face it without having to numb myself with food.
